Do you ever feel like something is gradually getting harder to do because you're not in the same place you were when you first started it? Every month or few months I get into this phase I'm going to call a "Drudge". In this this 1 to 3 week phase, which can further be divided into 3 parts, I become a real drudgery to be around. I become lost—emotionally, spiritually, mentally and sometimes physically (part 1). I realize that I'm lost and needy so I cry about it, flail and talk myself down while trying to fix the problem at the same time (part 2). Then: divine intervention (part 3). The one thing my mind needed to calm down or my heart needed to be brought back into reality or my worries needed to be relieved is said, read, realized or remembered. And it's like I'm being reborn. I shed the skin of doubt and inner betrayal and I see the world with a fresher perspective. I reevaluate, adjust and replenish. The weight of the world falls from my ...
Authenticity is attractive.